08/05/09 E-Mail from: Mountain Software Writer//To fateanalysisguy@gmail Hi All! I have been working on some code for mobile applications (for pay) that my employer hopes will soon rock the world. I find myself while repeating strips of code and rendering their check sums over and over, to ultimately debug them, with that a kind of flying on auto-pilot mental state sets in. One where you mind is some place else than where it should be. (Don't tell my boss- He believes I'm in total focus every second.) Anyway in this mind state I find myself trying to perceive some connection with what I am doing and my desire to create a psychology based on computer science. As a result during this boring repetitive stuff a fuzzy logic kicks in, It is not exactly science or art and its actions is halfway between my very personal self-analysis practice of depth level free association and the real constraints that miniaturized electrical cuicuts layouts forces on the software that has to run correctly on a particular hardware device. I (fuzzy) think 'can this devices dream, feel, think? It can deliver all sorts of images and words and sound to its holder'. ( then not fuzzy thinking) All stuff interesting or useful but hardly the real thing. At near quitting time, I shift into sharp focus as I consider how I am to break the news to my boss, that to bring this concept to market, that modifications in the hardware would have be made or they will have settle for fewer bells and whistles. MY DREAM THAT NIGHT |
| I am in a old time radio station-the equipment is acting up but running. The technology is pre-world war II, klunky looking mircrophones dials, meters, tubes, panels and knobs of black bakelite. There were even square glass jars filled with acid. Much like what you might see at tech museums. I could smell the ozone, the hot bakelite, and the acid. Mr. K (my real life boss) hands me a still hot old time glass radio tube that I can see its insides are blackened from suffering a burn out. It is clear to me, he expects me to do something about it. I rummage through a box of similar tubes, ones discarded from some past events. Most looked totally burnt out. I finally locate one with bent prongs but the glass was clear and the inner parts appeared intact. I offer it to try. Mr. K says No, the broadcast is on and we must wait to do repairs. We wait and look through a sound proof viewing window at the broadcast room, an anouncer who looks like Bill Clinton, intruduces a nice looking woman to sing. I struggle to make sence of the lyrics but the old style speakers distorted it too much. it was a sweet love song, I think. They left and a news crew took over the broadcast. From a stack of photos Mr. K hands me one of the girl who just sang, saying: "You just saw history in the making." Somehow I felt left out, peeved and disapointed but accepted the photo as gracefully as I could. |
| My analysis: I see in this dream, the day residues from the pressures of my work. The desire to please my boss etc. Also the problems of advancing technology and what we want to make it do. In my self-analysis sessions, I am working through the repetious failures in my love life. which I don't care to post publicly. Here the old burnt out radio tubes, I am sure Freud, would see as symbols of sexual problems or failed relations. My disappointment with being handed a photo and not the girl is obvious. The appearance of smell in the dream calls for some explanation I can't offer. Bill Clinton make me smile when I recall his public embarrasments. As always; if you have an alternative analysis. Send it to: fateanalysisguy@gmail.com Put in the subject "Radio Tubes Dream" and I'll get it. Tnanks-- |


